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The Turkey Who Stole My Heart

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A Thanksgiving Story originally published on my blog, Art Of Collecting Yourself.

When I was a kid, I had a pet turkey named Tom (creative, I know). Tom was little when he came to live with us.  He was the odd ball out.  The one turkey in a yard filled with lots of chickens; the only male in the hen-house.  If you have never lived with a turkey, day in and day out, you might not know what large egos they have.  This was the case with Tom for sure.  He could strut across the yard better than John Travolta in Saturday Night Fever. It was almost impossible not to be enamored with him.

I had just gotten my driver’s license when I discovered that someone had broken into my truck one night and stolen the Alpine Radio I got for Christmas.  I was so upset, so mad. I’d never had anything stolen before.  I hopped in the truck and sped down our long driveway in reverse. At the end of the driveway, I hit a bump. It was Tom, and although he was badly hurt, he was alive. I was crushed.  And honestly….so was he.  The sting of the missing radio was gone, quickly replaced with my concern for Tom.  I would never have hurt him.

Tom had a hole in his little red beard, and he sat a bit crooked, but we hoped he would recover.  We cared for him for several weeks, and eventually he was strutting like nothing had ever happened.  Well almost….

Tom had a reason to live, revenge. It seems turkeys hold grudges just like anyone else who gets blind-sided.  Everyday he waited for me to walk to my truck, the same truck which I had driven when I hit him.  He tried to run up and spur me every day. The spurs are hard and sharp.  I had plenty of reason to be afraid.  He was stealthy and quick. It was an everyday ritual.  I would peek out the window, trying to find him.  When I thought the coast might be clear, I would make a run for it.   I had to carry a broom with me, swooshing him gently away as I came and went.

And when I drove out of the driveway, I learned to be patient.  He would, with his crooked little bird body, attack the tires which had attacked him. I almost ran over him again several times, even though I tried my darndest to stay clear. He just wouldn’t give up.  He was Don Quixote charging at windmills.

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But as much as I was afraid of him, I understood his obsession.  If I had not have cared for him and found him so irresistible, I might have given up on him.  But I just couldn’t.  The family tried to come up with a solution.

We even got him a little female turkey thinking that he would set revenge aside for love.  But Tom was smart enough to keep vigil over the truck by day and romance her by night, a regular TOM Juan.  Eventually, we found new homes for the two, a place where they could roam free from vehicles.  It was, of course, the right thing to do.  They grew old together there.  Happily.tom-juanTom was never meant for the table, and thankfully, he never made it there. I think of him every year as others are looking for the perfect bird for their Thanksgiving table. I wouldn’t hold a grudge at all if in the end, his new life helped him forget me all together.  I know I will never forget him.  He was the turkey who stole my heart.
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Dancing within the Creative Fire

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Dancing within the Creative Fire

A few months ago I started getting in touch with a feeling of something simmering within me.  It had been brewing for quite sometime.  I had been feeling like I was off my game for quite sometime, so this little something, even though buried deep inside, felt vastly promising!  I could feel the flames licking at my heels to move me into action, but I still struggled to ignite them enough to feel a push of vital energy behind them.

Tools for the Creative Fire

I dug in with my best tools for stoking the creative fire to see if I could move past simmering and into flame.

I started with inner journey work, partnered with sacred cacao from Guatemala.  I journaled, created mind maps of the many projects that came up for me.  I visited with trusted mentors, potential collaborators, and even complete strangers.

Then I could feel I had a few ideas spark up inside.  I knew enough from the personal work I was doing to understand I should be focusing on something live and face-to-face….an event of some kind.

I explored potential event spaces.  I looked for inspiration and invited the Universe to share direction and wisdom with me.  I looked for clues that I was on the right path and acted like something was going to come of all the Wish-To energy….even though I often still felt just an inkling of what might actually come of my sparks.  I moved forward, playing the part of a person who strongly believed something big was coming my way.

Then, it happened.  Several of my creative ideas started to take shape.  I leaned heavy on my intuition.  If something felt right and easy, I went with that.  If there was a struggle, a snag and hook inside, I looked for the easy button! And within a few of those key  ideas, other ideas came in and shifted the direction so that multiple interests were finding life within a few major projects.

Suddenly, I was on fire!

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Sacred TempleKeepers was birthed, a partnership between me and Milena Worsham from Running Buffalo Journeys.

Milena and I have been friends and worked together both in business and for personal development for years.  She lives primarily in Guatemala but through the magic of the internet, we manage to share our spiritual journey in nearly weekly visits.

And so we began planning a series of PlayShops around the cacao we both love and use as part of our regular practice of self inquiry. We blended in creativity, spirituality, and a hefty dose of play.

I hunkered down and rode the wave of productivity to its pinnacle.  Our collaboration was solidified. There were meetings on Skype, back and forth emails, meditating, and brainstorming with additional partners.  Then, long nights to write copy and design promotional materials for the markets we were designing our PlayShops around. I love what we have brought to life together.

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As a result, I have been absent from this site and very present in Creativity Tribe live events and collaborations.

Part of me struggled with not keeping Creativity Tribe firmly up-to-date.  But I decided to stay with the momentum.  I think that was the right direction.

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I have spent the last several weeks traveling and guiding our special gatherings, as well as offering private sacred cacao sessions. Sunday ended the bulk of this line of events, and the momentum for follow-up events is strong in the air. I am brilliantly tired and joyfully filled up!

Image by Liz Ophoven

Image by Liz Ophoven

Dancing within the Creative Fire…Next Chapter

This opens a new chapter for me.  What it will be exactly, I am eager to see.  I am allowing the sparks of possibility to express themselves as I continue to dance within the creative fire.  I can’t wait to share the evolution with you!

Where Art Meets Mystery

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My journal has become my closest companion this last month.  It all began as I started attending a weekly meditation group and found rich stories pouring out of my inner worlds.  Often the stories were of my own healing or the impressions I felt from those I was close to.  Then, I began working with family members who were ill and a friend who was dying and the images I saw when I closed my eyes and got quiet invited themselves onto the pages of my journal.

I didn’t set out to draw my inner landscapes and the muses that populated them, but as my hand moved across the page to doodle, scribble, and otherwise make a mark, I found them showing up there.  They feel like some of the most personal drawings I have ever done.  They are more raw, more intimate, coming from my intuition. They are an expression of my spirituality.

I want to share them with you because they have felt like medicine to me and that kind of spirit-soothing through creativity what I hope to nurture here in Creativity Tribe Studio.

Today’s Intuitive Drawing came out of an evening spent in hospice with my friend.  As I waited in the silence of her room, I heard a call from within myself to sing a song I sang at the death bed of another friend.  The first time I sang it for the dying friend, I sang it over and over in her last minutes.  It felt like I might be helping to sooth the way for her.

The song says, “Surely the presence of Love is in this place, I can feel it’s mighty power and grace. I can hear the brush of angel’s wings, I see glory on each face. Surely the presence of Love is in this place.”  I think I have changed some of the words over the years, so it may have another version floating out there. But this is what I sing.

I struggled a bit with the urge I had to sing the song.  Others were in the room with me.  So I decided to sing it in my mind and began meditating on the door in front of me. The door to the room was cracked so that only golden light spilled in.  As I stared at the light it changed to a neon lavender…changed as things do when you stare long enough.  And I felt like I could see shadows like people passing in between the room and the door….as if they were in the room but all I saw were the shadows.  I thought perhaps I should stop staring so hard but for some reason I was drawn in.  I wasn’t scared because somehow although I felt like I was actually seeing something, I was seeing nothing.  Now I know that is a strange thing to say, but sometime there just aren’t words for making sense out of the unusual.

A nurse came into the room and asked the family to step out so she could tend to our friend.  As I walked away, I tried to shake the feeling that I had peeked into another world.  I tried to let go because if I was ever to REALLY experience something like that, I wouldn’t want it to be forced.  I wouldn’t want to spin a story from nothing.  And those pulses of light shadows were barely there.  Perhaps I was tricking myself.  Perhaps I wanted something more to happen.

I made it to the end of the hall and sat.  There was a hubbub in the room next to ours.  The family came out to let the nurse know their loved one had passed.  I was stunned.  I couldn’t help but wonder if I was singing the song for him.

Crossing Over

That night, alone in my room, I turned to the journal.  My journal has been one of those things that has been with me through the craziest, most confusing of times and has never let me down. It brings me clarity.  Letting my hand move across the page, I let go of the image above.  The picture is grainy, but I actually prefer that to the crisp lines.  The event was grainy.  It is an in-between life and death, knowing and unknowing, kind of experience. It left my mind curious to see the whole picture, wishing to know if what I sensed was the real deal.

I think  in times like this, in times where something other worldly, super natural, or something of the spirit has happened, you have to make a decision to doubt or just go with it.  Going with it is what I chose to do.  And this is what that means….

I think I sensed the passing of a person from this world into the next.  I think my intuition connected with him and wanted to ferry him to the next part of his journey with that song.  I never knew him….never saw him….but this image feels like it will connect me with him forever. And for that I am grateful.

Do you have a curiosity about spiritual art, intuitive art?  Join me and a host of spiritual creatives for a journey into a place where art means mystery.  Enrollment is open now….Angels In My Studio 2013.  The Magic begins July 22nd. I for one, can’t wait!

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What If This is Life’s Biggest Lesson?!

Step into the Light

Earlier this week I shared with you about how some of the difficulties in my life are transforming into wellsprings of beautiful lessons.  As often happens, I have heard from friends and colleagues that they too are having significant growth from discovering the gifts that challenging times offer.  I just love when the folks around me are “getting” it at the same time I am.

For that very reason, I wanted to share with you some of the ways I am helping that process along.  I think we often feel like those parts of our lives have control over us and that we are out of control when they happen, but I am starting to believe that those hard times just might be the most blessing rich times of our lives….if we choose for them to be.

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My Tips for Finding the Gifts in Difficulty

  1. Feel the Feelings:  There is nothing worse than being in pain, emotional or physical, and never getting to fully have what your are feeling recognized and witnessed.  As a Life Coach, this is some of the most important work that I do.  However, I have learned over the years that I don’t have to have another person witness my pain, although that is certainly invaluable.  When I don’t have that luxury, I give myself permission to express what I am feeling through art, writing, movement, or just by talking to the walls.  It may sound crazy, but it helps.  I am able to move the energy of those feelings out to make room for a more enlightened perspective.  This allows me to grow a deeper understanding of what I am feeling, where it comes from, and what it could possibly transform into that I might never get to if I am unwilling to look at it.  In fact, not feeling our feelings can lead to even more discomfort and difficulty.
  2. Softening:  At some point in the process of feeling the feelings, I become aware that I have gotten to some of the meat of the issue.  For me, I sometimes feel myself pull back from the “feeling session” a bit, there is a lull or a break where I can see from the point of view of the Inner Witness.  Instead of pushing out the emotions with strong intent, I will shift into a more receptive stance.  For me, this is often the place where transformation can take place. I may find myself at a crossroads where I have a choice to make.  Should I stay with the difficulty or encourage myself to move beyond it.  Sometimes I have to stay with it a bit longer.  That is definitely okay.  But, often, I will choose to soften myself, soften my anger or fear and invite something new to come in.
  3. Looking for the Gifts:  I learned early on in my life that I could….that we could….. ask to see the gifts of a situation.  The more difficult situations can take more willingness to open up to, but those often come with the most meaningful blessings.  I have encouraged myself to continue to revisit the potential gifts from the uncomfortable places in my life time and again, and as deep as something can hurt, that is as deep as the gifts go.  If a situation has layers of grief, anger, fear, or pain, I discover a morsel of love and goodness with each peeling back.  Sometimes the hurt of a situation is so deep that I can go back again and again for decades with new gifts showing themselves.
  4. Claim the Gifts:  It isn’t just enough to get a sense of something being good or positive from a difficulty.  Just as we find deeper understanding from fully expressing the feeling of hurt, so do we more fully glean the gifts when we name them, when we talk about them, write or draw about them….when we make them real and fleshed out.  Claiming our gifts can also be a gift that we give to others because we are modeling a way of living to others that is based on love of self and love of life.
  5. Expressing Gratitude:  This is definitely the bonus tip.  When we gather a gift from a difficulty, there is an additional grace (or gift) that comes from affirming that the gift would not have been ours had the difficulty not come.  Moving into a space of gratitude for the painful situation can inspire even further treasure.

I would love to hear how you have found gifts in your own difficulty or if this list has inspired any ah-ha’s for you.  Creativity takes many forms, but this kind of work is the creativity of better living and it is one of my faves.

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Keep creating!

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Radio Show {Take Two}

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Two weeks ago, I was a guest on Lucid Waking radio show.  Several friends wrote in to say they were not able to get the link to work, so I am reposting some of the details about the event.  It might be better timing for some of you to listen as we get deeper into the holidays.

By listening to The Spirit of Giving interview, you will discover….

  • the dynamics of giving
  • how to avoid giving burn out
  • when not to give
  • how to expand the gifts you have available
  • how giving leads to getting

Special thanks to my dear friend and partner in giving, Jessica of Hearth Roots.  She has been a great sounding board for my giving  journey and has blessed me by sharing her own.  That kind of sharing is really at the heart of the Spirit of Giving.

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Creativity Tribe Studio {Ornies}

I have been busy creating ornaments for the Apocalypse show at KSpace Contemporary.  They always have great ornaments created by area artist. I am excited to offer these up from the Creativity Tribe Studio.

I still have some work to do on them and will make sure to show them to you when they are all finished up.

Deep Gratitude

A few years ago, I started blogging with the idea that someday I would have a full blown website, get to share my art, my exquisite passion for the creative lifestyle, and help people discover their own creativity.  Now I am living that dream.  I am days away from launching the coaching portion of my business, my hands have been marked with paint everyday for a month, and I realize that my heart is so blessed that I overflow with gratitude.  YOU are a significant part of that blessing.  Today as I sit down with family to celebrate the Fall festival of Thanksgiving, I will be giving thanks for this community, for the bonds we are developing, and for the promise of more meaningful connections soon to come.

Where ever you are in the world…USA or otherwise….I encourage you to count your blessings. Blessings counted seem to multiply!

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Art Every Day Month is a movement, inspiring artist around the blogosphere! Head over and see what they are up to today!  Then, consider joining us.  It is a small act that makes a big different.  Creativity…….. engage!

My Art was Destroyed

Have you ever done mixed media art?  It is my new passion, partly for the product it creates, but mostly for the process.  I love it because it mirrors life itself.  It is messy, textural, organic, and holds the potential for beauty to come out of destruction.

I have been working on a painting the last several days….and nights.  It has been in my mind for a month.   I am creating it for an art show.

The Details

Is 2012 the End of Times? Doomsday? Armageddon? Well, if this is indeed “The End” my friend, K Space Contemporary has a “Final Countdown” for you! “The Apocalypse Show” is a huge group exhibition of artists from all across Texas and features their unique takes on the end of the world scenario. It’s also K Space’s 5th Anniversary this year so please come down, experience a fantastic show and help us party like it’s “1999″! If this is “The End of the World As We Know It”, you won’t want to miss possibly the last show ever!!! It’s going nuclear!

The Process

 I am taking the painting through some of the painting layers that I learned at Tracy Verdugo’s Paint Mojo Texas Retreat.  The process is complicated, and honestly, I am sure I have forgotten a few steps.  But I am pleased with the parts I have remembered.  I don’t want to make Tracy’s art. Instead, I want to explore my own themes, calling on some of what I learned from her.

One of the consistent themes in her process is to let the painting have its own life so that we never know when we will lose some little or big part of it that we have been in love with since it made its way onto the canvas.  That is the push and pull of the process for me.  I hate it because I sometimes am directed (by the process) to completely destroy parts of the image that I am totally digging.  But the part I LOVE about the process is that I only destroy out of a sense of trust in the process itself.

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And that, my friends, is what I cherish about life…about being a Creative.  That is at the heart of the work I am doing as a Life Coach.  Trusting that something beautiful can grow out of chaos, pain, destruction, and difficulty. 

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So, enough talk about the painting. Let’s see the progression.

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Art Every Day Month is a movement, inspiring artist around the blogosphere! Head over and see what they are up to today!  Then, consider joining us.  It is a small act that makes a big different.  Creativity…….. engage!

Make More Art from the Heart

It’s been a whirlwind day.  I started by creating a care package for a dear friend who is going into the hospital tomorrow.  I created a few coloring pages for her with small poems circling around them, threw in a few black and white copies of my favorite drawings and a new zine my husband drew up last month.  I tucked inside one of my dreamcatchers and a few notes from some shared friends. Not long after that, my hubby and I drove out to meet her and her hubby. First I shared the care package, then we headed to dinner. It was a great visit.

I have been thinking a lot about sharing.  It sounds like a no-brainer. It was one of those lessons we have been learning since before we were potty trained.  Share your toys….share your spot in the front seat….share where you bought those fabulous shoes….share your mind, your money, your heart.  Sometimes I am better at sharing than others.  I admit it!

But recently I have been feeling the benefit of a few powerful sharing moments.  About a year ago my hubby and I gave a friend a gift. It wasn’t for Christmas or birthday, it was given because someone gave us a gift that we were choosing to share.  Then about six months ago the family we gave our gift to, gave us something totally unexpected.  Their surprise gift got tucked away during our travels and a portion of it was found in my studio yesterday.  It included an incense burner, a bit of charcoal, and amber resin.  This morning I lit the charcoal and dropped the amber on it.  The smoke-filled the house and permeated my clothes.  It is a sweet, rich smell that made me extremely happy.  It is, in fact, my very favorite smell.  The gratitude for the gift reminded me of the long chain of giving that had brought it into my life.  From someone to me, from me to another, from that other back to me.

As I am looking at the upcoming holidays, I want to remember how good giving feels.  I want to connect with the giver in me and give that part of me space to explore new frontiers in sharing.

Speaking of sharing, let me share how I ended my day….making art in the studio.  I have trunk show at Feather’s Beauty Lounge this weekend.  My focus today……why, feathers, of course!  A few owls in the works and a few chickadees.

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Art Every Day Month is a movement, inspiring artist around the blogosphere!  Head over and see what they are up to today!  Then, consider joining us.  It is a small act that makes a big different.  Creativity…….. engage!

Art Making Marathon

Yep, I am stretching, getting all pumped up, and ready, because this week I am going the extra mile. I’m doing an Art Making Marathon in the Creativity Tribe Studio.

On the agenda: more wire dreamcatchers, a wire dragonfly, a few painted birdies, and some little paintings. …..and maybe a few other goodies!  My sister-in-law, Erica Duff, has a new salon that blends her love of doing hair with her love of handmade art.  Oh, and I can’t forget her love of all things feathered!

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I few months ago I decked her walls out with some of my paintings, and now, for her first big event (a trunk show featuring fashions and accessories from Benjamin’s) she has invited me and a few of my favorite art chicas to join in the festivities!

I have spent the last year building my business with Amy and Charlotte as my creative comadres. We meet about once a month for tea, talk about the highs and lows of having creative businesses, show our art together at certain venues, and offer rich support for the solo-preneurial journey. Growing my business has been made extra special with their energy to help keep my flying.

 Here are some goodies from the first day of my Art Making Marathon.  It a great way to channel the incredible momentum that I have felt after attending Paint Mojo Texas and doing art everyday this month with AEDM2012.

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Art Every Day Month is a movement, inspiring artist around the blogosphere!  Head over and see what they are up to today!  Then, consider joining us.  It is a small act that makes a big different.  Creativity…….. engage!

 

 

Choosing this Moment

Most of us say to ourselves, “I want to be more creative. I want to do more art.”

Today is in front of you. This moment is begging for you to choose IT, shouting, “Pick me. Pick me.”

And when you do, you are really picking yourself.

It is just that simple.

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