I have been visiting an old memory, going back in my personal history to a time just a few years into adulthood. I remember feeling like I was chaotic inside, a tangled pile of jewelry. So tangled I wasn’t sure anyone, even the most patient of souls, could clear the confusion. And yet something made me examine the knots with an eye bent on weighing out the treasure that might be held there. Sure enough, I discovered the snarled pile of bobbles and trinkets promised to offer a few genuine gems.
It began with a line, a hope stretched out before me, turning into a curve and loop, a reach and dip until it created a map of my future. For years that map served as my guiding light. On it, I proposed that I might help people, that I might help others find their voices, show them how to activate their creativity. I fancied the idea of being a published writer, of traveling cross country to speak at conventions, retreats, workshops, and intimate circles. I wanted to offer experiences that would move people to be better, and somehow (and I really didn’t know how it would happen), I would be happy, confident, at peace with who I was, and stable enough to serve as a leader to others.
I have been visiting that old memory. They come in flashes, moments over the course of a month or so when I looked deep within my battered spirit and tried to scry a future for myself. That memory represented a gamble I was taking….on myself and on life. Did I dare dream? Did I dare contemplate a possible destiny that was THAT big and THAT different from where I thought I was?
There are some choices in my life when I have chosen bravery over staying at the status quo, flat out said to myself, “To do this takes courage.” I am grateful for the choice I made then. It is because I took a chance on that possibility that I am where I am today.
Where I am on my Life Map
I am a helper. I open doors for others. I help them find their voices. I show people how to access their creativity. I have been published. I have traveled across the country to speak at a convention, been honored with an award for blending my helping skill with my creative gifts. Have taught workshops and led intimate circles. I offer experiences that move people…that move people to a better place. And somehow, thank all that is good, I am happier than I have ever been in my life. I am stable enough to serve as a leader to others, am confident and at peace with who I am.
I would say the map worked!
And so today, I sat down and began looking at that once tangled web of treasure….now put in order and set as a lovely collection of the beauty that is me. I asked myself where these riches might take me, what new horizon was in store. And I began working on a new map, an act two to my BIGGEST, BESTEST dreams come true.
The paper was too small to hold my dreams.
This coming week I will be making a shift here at Creativity Tribe to offer life coaching as my primary service. It make sense on paper and in my spirit. I have been in the helping profession for years, teaching theatre and art, acting professionally, selling my work. I have help creatives risk exposing their inner thoughts and imagining, assisting them in redefining what being an artist means so that they don’t have to come from a place dark and twisted to create. I have been a massage therapist for a decade now, growing my understanding of human anatomy and the anatomy of the spirit all at the same time. I have been asked by friends to serve as officiant at their most sacred life shifts: marriages, house blessings, births, menstruation celebrations, deaths, and funerals. I have pursued my interest in the creative arts by earning an undergraduate degree in communication arts and have followed my desire to help by attaining a masters in counseling.
I can’t tell you how good it feels to put my hands out and say, “I have this to offer.”
The word coach doesn’t describe what I feel like I offer, but it is the closest term our culture has. Companion, champion, wise woman, mentor, or perhaps guide? Whatever feels comfortable, I am here to help….I am a helper. It is what I have wanted to do professionally for years and now I am making it official. I am a coach…of life, of creativity, of dreams wishing to be fulfilled.
What adventure awaits you? I am in! Shall we?
(All the Life Coaching details will be rolled out next week. You can subscribe to the blog by email ….at the top of the side column …if you are interested in following the shift in the site. I would also like to invite you to celebrate a peace-filled holiday with the StressLess Holiday Cheer Party….my gift to you.)
This post coincides with the ending of Art Every Day Month. What an adventure it has been! Personally I have felt indulgent, diving into creativity for such a long streak. I also have a very deep appreciation for the relationships that have grown out of this adventure. I hoped to meet a few creatives, and was delighted when a few stepped forward to connect as friends! Thank you, each of you, especially Leah, for offering your creativity and your support.